More backbends, Customer service, Heartbreak

Sharath has assistants at the shala. These are people who he’s authorized to teach — practitioners with many years of experience. This morning one of the assistants helped me with my final backbends. She took my lead, when it came to walking in to my feet; if I had walked in a little and stopped, she would have left it at that. But I wanted to get to my heels, so I kept going, and when she saw that was my game, she went for it: instead of just letting me get my fingers touching my heels, she grabbed my wrists and made sure I was grasping my ankles. Wheee! I’m still a little disoriented in that position, so I wasn’t fully present in the moment, but it’s getting there.

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I brought a water-heating device with me to India. Purchased from Amazon, it was a metal heating coil that hung on the side of a cup and plugged into the wall. Sadly, as a few Amazon reviewers complained, the darn thing stopped working after a week.

So off I went to Easy Day, which is a department store (and which, I recently learned, is owned by Walmart). I did a stealth shop (no wandering around looking at other random items, just a locate-and-buy-the-one-thing-you-want kind of deal) and came away with an electric water heater. Easy.

But alas, not so easy. When I opened the package, ready to heat some water for tea, I discovered that the electrical base that the pitcher fits into was not in the box. So back to the store for an item exchange experience.

All I had to do was pull the receipt out of the bag as I went in the door. “Exchange, Madam?” the greeter said, and pointed me to a Customer Service desk.

At the Customer Service desk I was immediately surrounded by half a dozen employees who wanted to hear about my issue. The receipt was inspected, the box was opened, the water pitcher was taken out, turned upside down, passed around, and people looked into the box to make sure nothing else was in there.

“No one checked, Madam?” one girl asked me.

I understood what she meant because when I’d told my story of the incomplete appliance at breakfast, one of the Mysore veterans had asked, “They didn’t open the box and check it at the register? They always do that!”

I told the girl that no, no one had checked, and that I hadn’t realized they were supposed to check. She nodded and told me to wait where I was. Then she and several of the other Customer Service reps marched away. [Time lapse.] After a good long while, she came back with a replacement for me. Her manager came over and the three of us opened the box and inspected the contents. Check; there was a heating base and cord.

“Would you like us to heat some water with it, Madam, to make sure it works?” the manager asked me.

Uh, no. Interesting idea, though.

Turns out it works just fine.

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Okay, so now we’re onto heartbreak. A couple of nights ago, as Susan and I were walking to the Green Hotel for dinner, we saw a street dog hit by a car. We were on the crematorium road, up near where people throw garbage. It was actually a kind of idyllic scenario: a cow and two dogs and a bunch of birds up by the garbage, peacefully scavenging as the sun was setting. The dogs got rambunctious and were playing around, and one was hit in the street.

The sound was awful and I was horrified. I looked up to see the hurt dog running toward us, trying to get away from the car, and at first I was heartened; he could run. But then I saw that his lower left front leg was totally broken and just swinging loosely as he ran. He scrambled off toward where some people keep sheep, and I just stared in dismay.

Of course it started driving me crazy, so I got online and contacted some people here in Mysore to see if there was anything I could do. There is an animal rescue on the edge of town — overwhelmed and underfunded, of course — and I called the woman who runs it. She sent her men out the next morning, and I met them at the crematorium to tell them what had happened and where, in hopes that they could speak to some of the residents and perhaps find the dog. It felt pretty hopeless, since the dog was likely off hiding somewhere and in great pain, but there was nothing else we could do but look.

He did not turn up, though. The area is pretty open, with lots of nooks and crannies for a dog to hide; an abandoned park strewn with trash, the shepherd area, the woods behind the crematorium, a little town of shacks in a gully.

I’ve been going back in the mornings, in hopes that he might get hungry enough to scavenge. I’ve tried talking to some of the people who live on the road, but no one speaks English. It finally occurred to me last night that I should ask one of the yoga people who’s moved to Mysore permanently & learned some of the language to help me be able to say a few words in Kannada: “dog,” “broken leg,” and “where?” I’ll try that tomorrow morning.

This morning, after breakfast, a friend was talking with me when suddenly she teared up. She said she didn’t understand why, and that it didn’t make sense. I told her that I understood, and that there really is something here that can scrape your emotions raw. I told her that I am feeling it too — and that I think of it as heartbrokenness. Everything is busy and loud and exotic around here — an endless hustle and bustle — but at the core there is an inescapable vulnerability.

There’s a chant we do at the shala that I love:

lokah samastah sukhino bhavantu

May all beings everywhere be happy and free.

Telework, Led, Pale food

Getting up to work in the middle of the night is not bad at all. Well, middle of the night by yoga standards. I have been working early in the morning (3 AM until it’s time to head out to practice at around 8), and then I do conference calls at night, usually between 9 PM and midnight. So it’s early to bed, early to rise (for con calls), then back to bed, then early to rise (for work and practice). I have to check, but I think I’m sleeping as much as I normally do, just in different chunks.

And here’s an interesting upside to working from Mysore: all of the tactical/detail/transactional kinds of stuff seems to fall away, and there’s a big open field of conceptualization that is especially useful for broader thinking: strategic, design and systems stuff. I’m in heaven, really, when that’s where my mind gets to play.

India, land of randomness, is where sweating the small stuff goes to die.

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First led class today. What that means is that instead of each person doing their own practice, the whole bunch of us jams into one room and Sharath counts each breath and it’s a massive collective energy charge. Well, there are actually three led classes, one after another, because there are so many students and not enough room — but the point is, I got to put my mat down in a room full of other people who love the practice the way I do, and it felt very, well, nourishing.

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Speaking of nourishment, there is no lack of great food here. Susan and I went over to Rishi’s Cafe last night. Like many Indian restaurants, it’s really just someone’s home. The owner ushered us into a small room, where her teenage daughter was doing her homework. The daughter picked up her books and papers and set us up with a small table, silverware, etc. The food was fantastic: “sattvic” food, considered particularly suitable for yoga practitioners. It is mostly vegetables, legumes and grains (rice and chapati), all very simply prepared, with little fat or spice. It is intended to benefit the body and cultivate equanimity of mind. I love it.

The owner of the cafe told us that it was a good idea for us to call ahead if we wanted a meal, so she could have the right amount of food ready when we arrived. She said that she preps ingredients but does not cook until she knows how many people she will be feeding, because she could not deal with any leftovers. Her family, she said, would *never* eat the food. “Ugh,” she said, wrinkling her nose, “We do not like such pale food.”

Nervous system, Worky work, Internal fire

Okay, so I think it’s safe to say that I have officially proven to myself that I can walk in to my feet in backbends when Sharath is helping me. I do not explode into a mist of nervous system. So now I have to be more conscious about being present in that moment; actually savoring the action.

Yes, that’s what the inside of my head sounds like right now, as I try to pick out what my next step is here. That’s it. Simple.

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Starting this morning at 3:30 AM, I’m back to taking con calls for work. It was nice to have four hours put in before I went to the shala this morning. It’s interesting to feel how work stuff gets my head all riled up. Even when things are going well, there’s a kind of tension. I wonder if I can work that through so that I can transcend the tension.

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And last but not least, I smell like Indian food. It’s a little freaky. I’m going to spend the next few days eating only at western or Ayurvedic (no harsh spices) places. I actually feel hungover from spice. Too much gobi manchurian, for one thing. Too much chili and garlic paste.

I went over to Santosha for breakfast after practice and stuck with something I’d eat at home: tofu and veggie scramble, toast with jam, ginger tea. It was awesome and I don’t feel like my internal organs are on fire.

Hair, homework, hanging out

When you register at the shala, you are given a time to come to practice. You are supposed to show up 10 minutes early, and then everyone in that time block sits in the foyer on the floor and slowly smooshes in toward the door as Sharath calls, “One more!” As the students in the shala finish their practices, they are helped with final backbends, then given a squish, and sent to the back to do their final poses. Then someone from the foyer takes their place.

So everyone has an assigned time (mine was 9:30), but Sharath tends to change people’s times as numbers for the earlier time blocks decrease (this happens when students finish their time at the shala and go back home). Like Indian driving, shala time assignment is a system that is mysterious and impossible to understand.

Yesterday Susan and I were sitting on the shala steps, waiting for our time to go into the foyer, when Sharath appeared at the door and said, waving his arm at I’m not exactly sure what, “Your time is 9:00.”

Um, okay. Did he mean everyone on the stairs? Was he looking at someone specifically? Who knows.

So this morning, we went over and took our place in the 9:00 time block, feeling a little nervous and wondering if he was going to look into the foyer and demand to know what we were doing there so early.

Sure enough, he came to the doorway and looked at me.

“What time?” he asked.

“9:00?” I replied, uncertainly.

“You?” he said to Susan.

“9:00?” she replied.

He stood there for a moment, then said, “Your hair is different.”

Uh, yeah. Last year it was lighter. And the humidity this year seems to be making it especially, um, big.

“Curly,” he said, and walked away.

So I guess 9:00 is okay.

kacie b

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Last year, I left my visit to the shala with very clear homework. I had to gain confidence in my drop backs and coming to standing. And I had to learn to grasp my feet in backbends.

So I worked on the drop backs and coming back to standing until my form was better and — most importantly — my anxiety about doing them went away. The toughest part of practice last year in the shala was how freaked out I’d feel as I tried to do a good drop back, and then come back up to standing without over- or undershooting the movement. Undershoot and you don’t get back up to standing; overshoot and you propel yourself into a crash with Sharath, who is standing there at the front of your mat.

Today, as soon as I got to backbends, he came over. I’d heard that he has an uncanny memory for what people are working on in their individual practices, and it seems to be more than a rumor. I did my drop backs and stand-ups, and then he helped me with walking in to my heels. And yay! today I managed to grab them. The homework that got started at this time last year came to fruition. “Good,” he said, with a warm smile.

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Today we went over to Sandhya’s for lunch. Sandhya is regarded as the best cook in Mysore — and I certainly wouldn’t argue the point. Appu was happy to drive us over to Sandhya’s house, where we had lunch with a bunch of people we’d never met before. It was a pretty diverse group: Australian, New Yorker, Italian, Swiss, Mexican, French, Canadian, American.

The best dish is still the curried tomatoes. But she’s also added a pumpkin dish that is awesome. We topped it all off with some chai.

On the way home, Appu mentioned Sankranti, which is coming up on the 14th or 15th.

“Cows and fire,” he said. “Jumping.”

“Oh, is that the thing you went to last year?” Susan asked.

Indeed. Sankranti. Or, as I think of it, that time I wondered if I’d have to give my daughter an emergency tracheotomy with a nearby tree branch. I’m thinking I’ll take a pass this year.